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My mood has been pretty foul lately and I'm fighting like a mad woman to keep the faith, something that has been very difficult over the last few weeks.

But there are those who hear you cry and you know you can spill all your ridiculous thoughts while your nose runs and you're basically speaking gibberish through tears and they listen and tell you that you're still okay despite your weakness. And even though you spend all your time talking about your own pain and fears, they still believe in you and encourage you.

And these people who put up with you tell you to focus on the good things like your favorite TV show LOST, which leads you to a conversation with a work friend who also loves the show that your particular opinion about where these people are lost is a lot like the book you read in high school called Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge, which then leads to a google search wherein you discover that on one episode -- something you missed when you saw it a year and a half ago -- your favorite character John Locke -- like the empiricist philosopher -- is holding a copy of that very book in his hand.

And coincidences (or synchronicities), the cornerstone of faith for you, come back into focus.

And you'll never know how to thank them for giving you your joy back.

I really don't know how to thank you. I hope I can do the same for you someday.

UPDATE: I just finished watching LOST and one of the new characters is named Charlotte Staples Lewis. Um, Clive Staples Lewis...C.S. Lewis.

I love this show...

posted by Lola @ 8:09 PM